Sunday, July 17, 2011
#7 being happy
once when i was little.
Life when were were little was a lot easier. Your friends were there all the time because they didn't know anything of not being there. I can't imagine that now I am going to college, and not seeing most of my friends next year. I could believe then, pretend more than. When we were little, everything was sunny. We were innocent and believed good in everything and anything. Now I'm wishing to go back to seventh grade, winning the sectional basketball game, taking us girls to the state tournament. Everything was simpler. Now take a minute and think about your little kid dreams. Now music runs my life, so listen to James Morrison and pretend that your still little.
Like the song says, I was the one...well I was the one to do whatever and not think twice. I was a tomboy. I thought I was one of the boys. I climbed trees, played baseball and even believed I could out run any boy. :) And there was a time, when I trusted everyone. But when you get older, people leave and grow apart. That is not to stay that is bad, because growing is a part of life. I just wish, I could see the kids I used to know. I used to be so close to guy in my class, now were still there for each other but it is different. He was awesome and smart and he got me. He has a girlfriend now, but now saying that I don't wish everyday that it was me. He will never read this...so of course I have the balls to type it. Writing and drawing seem to be the easiest ways for me to communicate the unspoken words that I can't say. The underlying meaning to every art piece I make. Him and me, there was nothing we couldn't do!
But I am not going to live in the past, because I only want him to be happy! I've come to conclusions that, if having things turn out, the way you wanted them to, is the measure of a successful life. Then some may say that I've failed, thus far. The important thing is, not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that everyday won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember its only in the black of the nights that you can see the stars. And those stars lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble or fall, cause most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you won't get everything that you wished for. Maybe you'll get more that you ever could of imagine. Who knows where life can take you, the road is long, but in the end, the journey is the destination.
Like the song says, I was the one...well I was the one to do whatever and not think twice. I was a tomboy. I thought I was one of the boys. I climbed trees, played baseball and even believed I could out run any boy. :) And there was a time, when I trusted everyone. But when you get older, people leave and grow apart. That is not to stay that is bad, because growing is a part of life. I just wish, I could see the kids I used to know. I used to be so close to guy in my class, now were still there for each other but it is different. He was awesome and smart and he got me. He has a girlfriend now, but now saying that I don't wish everyday that it was me. He will never read this...so of course I have the balls to type it. Writing and drawing seem to be the easiest ways for me to communicate the unspoken words that I can't say. The underlying meaning to every art piece I make. Him and me, there was nothing we couldn't do!
But I am not going to live in the past, because I only want him to be happy! I've come to conclusions that, if having things turn out, the way you wanted them to, is the measure of a successful life. Then some may say that I've failed, thus far. The important thing is, not to be bitter over life's disappointments. Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that everyday won't be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair, remember its only in the black of the nights that you can see the stars. And those stars lead you back home. So don't be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble or fall, cause most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you won't get everything that you wished for. Maybe you'll get more that you ever could of imagine. Who knows where life can take you, the road is long, but in the end, the journey is the destination.
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